THE FOUR SEASONS

The Four Seasons

Decorations of red on a green Christmas tree won’t mean a thing if you’re not here with me?

What is it about the holidays that heightens the word relationship or lack their of. It seems that during the holidays the strangest emotions start to creep up.

You were fine in September?

Is it do to the change of seasons? Does this only happen to people that are single? Is Hallmark part of a conspiracy who’s intent is to take you on a visuraul roller costar of emotions while watching heart wrenching commercials that make Frank Capra seem mild. Jeez

So now, after seeing the commercials and reading the cards you find out at time of purchase you get a free kissing bear!! Oh Please..

It’s enough to tear your heart out, along with the fact that it feels somewhat like mulit-level marketing. So the medley continues.

“ I’ll have a blue Christmas without you”!

You find yourself reminiscing about other relationships of days gone by. Before you know it you’re in a cozy chair with a snifter of brandy and you’re on the Jacob Marley tour.

Your mind takes you through every bad relationship you ever had and what’s worse is that you actually start missing them!

Oh my God! It must be something in the eggnog or perhaps the mistletoe works like catnip in reverse.

It actually starts in the fall around pumpkin season. All of a sudden you feel this despair about not being in the patch. Then you have this insatiable urge for cider. Oh lord, and let’s not forget the raging fireplace. As the wind whistles you hear the voices of all your Ex.’s.

The scary part is that you know you cannot escape Christmas and the ever-dreadful New Year’s Eve.

But you awaken in the New Year and realize that God has some sense of humor. So you feel better, you did it! You got through to another year with a smidgen of hope left in your heart and then before you know it, spring is in the air. OK so you weathered the storm so to speak and now you have to deal with blue skies and sultry warm nights and then you have this desire to walk in the park and smell the flowers and look at sunsets and hear the ocean.

The sad part is that everyone you meet does not fit the criteria. You have also realized that apparently you learned some lessons in the dead of winter cause settling is no longer an option. But yet you continue to do the dance and remain optimistic and proactive.

Yes optimistic and proactive is now called dating!

It’s like going on an interview.

Q- What do you do for a living?

A- Well, I’m in banking.

Q- Do you like it?

A- Hummm, I suppose. Yes I like puppies and sunsets and long walks on the beach.

Oh Lord….And so it goes….

It’s the Good, the Bad and the Ugly, and oh yea by the way I have dated them all as well..

So you grow tired and throw yourself into your work and optimistic and proactive becomes sparatic. The sad part is that you have done all this work on yourself and there’s no one home to see it.

But then when I least expected it God sent me an amazing person, a muse. Ok a muse with an attitude, fiery, feisty but nonetheless the most remarkable person I have ever met.

They say Love comes from the most unexpected places and I certainly did not expect this! I have meet people that have said they were ready, willing and able and then only to find that they were truly unavailable, unwilling and not capable.

So I am happy to say that I am so looking forward to the pumpkin patch and the cider and the raging fireplace. The Christmas tree, the lights and the strike of midnight on New Years Eve. The sunsets, the beach and cold winter nights.

Is it scary, yeah! Am I scared, most certainly!

I am no longer trying to fit a square peg into a round whole. I found what could be the greatest love of my life.

They say you only have one of them or at least that’s what Sonny said in a Bronx Tale. So when God sends you a gift I’m thinkin you shouldn’t ignore it. I know he has a sense of humor but I don’t want to push it. The last thing I wanna do is piss off God!!

Cider anyone…