Available
~ Unavailable - Taken not Stirred!!
In
listening to some of my friend relationship issues it seems like we all balance
the dance of the Unavailable or Available.
I am a
person that believes in magic and passion and romance. The kind that you
feel when a stranger walks into a crowed room and ya just know it :)
Yet we
still have a lifetime of baggage that we carry around that is invisible to
the naked eye. If we knew about this baggage perhaps we would be more
cautious but that my friends is the delicate dance of love.
It’s
called "Letting Go!"
When you
let go and become available emotionally great things happen, that is
unless of course you are dating an emotionally unavailable person. Then you
better strap on the seatbelt cause you are in the roller coaster of love and
you are not even sure you meet the height requirement.
For years
you were able to hide behind this shroud, never really letting people in.
You were
really good at one nightstands because you could leave !!!!!!!!
Once in a
while you would even meet someone that would call you on your shit. Letting you
know how much you are missing out on because of your need to self protect. You
were merely a prophylactic with no penetration.
Premature
imagination~
So you
decided that it was important to you to find a way to let go and let love in.
You did all the right things, went to a shrink, self-reflection, and meditation
and even chanted once in a while. Then the day came! It happens without thought
or intention. You just meet someone and you feel the rush of fear fall out of
your body. You did it – YOU LET GO ~~
This is
what it feels like to be available. You can actually feel it leave and guess
what you are still ok!
But here is
the dangerous part. If the person you let go for is slightly unavailable you
feel all the things that scared the shit of of you in the first place. The
things that made you want to be unavailable. So now you really know what it
feels like to be open. You hurt, you cry, you get angry. You fight, you yell.
The very things you ran from are now you’re day to day.
It’s then
that you realize: “now I know why I held back!” Who wants to feel this shit!
Abort!
Abort!
Nah, you
really don’t want to go back to not felling, do you?
I would
rather feel a thousand hurts then not feel anything at all.
That’s what
it’s all about Alfie~
Never go
back always move forward and never stop yourself from feeling.
So get
taken by someone not stirred.
